DXM, ALD-52 & AL-LAD

DOSE: T+ 0:00 3 tablets oral DXM T+ 0:00 100 ug sublingual ALD-52 (blotter / tab) T+ 0:00 75 ug sublingual 1cP-AL-LAD (blotter / tab) T+ 1:00 4 tablets oral DXM

At first I took 3 of my 7 pills of dxm (2.8mg/kg) and put the blotters I had prepared under my tongue. Then I went to play some Tetris to pass some time. After half an hour I got ready to take my routine walk, that I always take when I�m tripping. My routine helps me a lot during the comeup and I can always get a grip on the trip. I started walking and after about 20 minutes I arrived at my destination, the peaceful meadow near a forest. There I took the other 4 pills I had left (T:1:00).

As soon as I did I realized something was off, it felt weird to swallow these pills and my hands were trembling a little while I was swallowing. Everything started to become stronger and I got a little bit anxious, so I started walking home while listening to music. 10 minutes later I realized that sound was heavily distorted. It was not an unexpected effect on DXM but it was coming way earlier than expected. I put down my headphones and put them into my pocket and continued walking.

Everything in my vision started to get some kind of grey tint and everything started to look weird and scary. My body became heavier and I felt the physical effects of DXM starting to kick in really quick. Sounds were being heavily stretched and coming out of all directions, just random sounds that scared me. That�s when I realized I should get home as fast as possible, I was getting really frightened.

I knew I had to keep my calm, I didn't want end in a hospital. I needed to walk past a school and to my surprise it was just the time when parents started getting their children from school. When I was walking past them, what they were saying was not understandable for me anymore, it was way too much reverbed and distorted. I thought everything was okay. The cheerful appearance of the teenagers calmed me down, they didn't sound scary. But after a few seconds it went back to nightmare mode.

I finally got home. I realized I couldn't continue my usual routine. I went into the bathroom upstairs and striped off all my clothes including my underwear to get my body temperature down. I sat down on the corner of the bathtub and let cold water run down my feet, but it was already too much stimulation for my brain. I also noticed my vision getting worse and worse or rather the visuals getting stronger really fast. The vignette I had in my vision was getting stronger and stronger and more blurry. It was a whole new level of visual distortion for me. The walls were moving entirely and shapes were everywhere. I was really starting to panic and loose my mind.

To try to get this situation under control I started messaging a friend. He knew what I took, so I figured he could help me. I told him that I think I�m fucked and it is going to be hell. Then I went back and forth between my room and the bathroom, trying to pass some time. After that I went back to my computer and I looked at the clock only 5 minutes had passed. It felt like time stopped. I just wanted to get out of where I was. I wanted it all to stop. So I continued messaging my friend and he started to realize I was not having a good time. He started to give me spiritual advice and I was really having a hard time reading and trying to follow it.

I tried to lay down as he suggested. As I laid down I touched my chest and felt that my heart was pounding really hard and fast. It felt like a fist was hitting my chest from inside trying to get out. I was really questioning whether I�m going to die or not or whether I should get actual help, but then I remembered my friend�s words. I was just on drugs. I closed my eyes and that�s where everything started to unfold. I started to see three dimensional structures made out of fractals and I started to hear the orchestra of this other reality. It sounded exactly like one of Qebrus songs. It still wasn�t a pleasant experience because it was highly intense and I still had bad feelings inside of me, but it was highly interesting what I was experiencing. I started to understand what these sounds meant. It was the language of that dimension. It was how one communicates and deals and trades in that universe.

I was observing some entities trading something between each other, I didn�t see what was being traded or transferred (perhaps knowledge) but I understood that it was happening. Then everything was turning different, it got less exhausting but still intense. My jaw was jittering like crazy, I had a really hard time controlling it and my whole body was trembling too. After that I don�t really know what happened, because suddenly it popped into my mind "I have access to the entity, I can open the door at any time and visit it". Since I couldn't remember how I got this access, I closed my eyes again and I saw the door. I opened the door and then I saw the entity. It was very symmetrical and made out of fractals, it was rather round because so many shapes were overlapping. I somehow communicated in that language "Hey do you want to become one with each other?" because I was curious what would happen. Immediately as I open my eyes, my vision starts to vibrate and got filled with fractals and my body started to vibrate or rather I started to tremble, even the whole room was vibrating.

The room was slowly starting to spin faster and faster until it reached max speed and then it was complete. The auditory experience was also amazing, sounds were getting higher and faster too. I snapped back to our reality and realized all the funny thoughts I just had. I closed my eyes again. It was like all the bad stuff I held down, all the bad stuff that happened in my life, was suddenly in front of me and I had to deal with it. I was imagining whole scenarios and they were very realistic to me. I came to some kind of conclusion and resolved the issues that were presented. I felt slightly relieved.

T~2:00-3:00 I still wasn't feeling good, but I wasn't scared anymore because I realized I reached the highest point of the trip. It wasn't going to get stronger than that. That immediately calmed me down as I knew I could handle this intensity even if it went on for hours. Then, out of coincidence, the sun started to shine through my windows directly onto me. It made me feel more comfortable, so I started to try to listen to some music. I started playing my playlist I had prepared. My mood was slowly going uphill as the song was very very uplifting to the point where I started to hum it. I felt like a happy dog that was just content with just existing, I was feeling alright.

I figured I should message my friend on my phone telling him that I feel alright now. Then I went to my computer and listened to a song by the artist 2814 on my good over-ear headphones instead of my in-ears. I put my head on the table and closed my eyes. As soon as I did, my body disappeared. The whole feeling of my body just gone. I couldn't even feel myself breathing. I was floating. I was just a soul floating around in the universe. I put my head on the table and closed my eyes. As soon as I did, my body disappeared. The whole feeling of my body just gone. I couldn't even feel myself breathing. I was floating. I was just a soul floating around in the universe.